No Scholarship to Life

“What are you gonna be, when you get shoved outta here, honey ain’t nobody gonna be standin there with no scholarship to life. And I was scared, scared, scared, sacaaaaaaaaared! Our braces gone, our pimples gone, our childhood gone goodbye.” – A Chorus Line

College is over. At this time one week from today the horrid graduation ceremony (that whole story is for another post) will be over. I will have a B.A. in communication and will be on my way. At this time right now I have no more assignments or school things I can worry about and all I can do is wait for my grades.

It’s very surreal. And also slightly terrifying.

It seems like all of this school business is over before I even stopped complaining about it. And while I’m happy to be done, the question is now literally, what am I going to do with my life?

Obviously I have plans for Disney World (where I leave to go to in exactly one month from today – ohdeargod), but after that I got nothing. This is all very exciting, but I like to have things to plan for and worry about. School was a plan and worry outlet before and of course getting ready to leave is filling up part of that void, but it still feels like something’s missing.

It’s a very hard to describe feeling and I’m sure quite over dramatic and ridiculous, as I tend to get, but it’s how I feel all the same.

College was safe. Even though I didn’t love it by any means, you sound pretty legit when you say you are a student. College was safe. Especially since I lived at home and my school was like 10 minutes away from my house. College was just safe.

Once you graduate, however, you lose that security and you have to put forth a lot more effort to sound legit and not like a  graduated bum (especially with a slightly bogus degree like Communication, but at the same time aren’t all degrees overrated?).  Once you graduate, nobody is there handing you scholarships and commending you on your academic performance, or takeing pity on your monetary poorness. Once you graduate, that’s it.

Welcome to the world of responsible adulthood.

Oh shit.

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